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12-03-2008 10:17 AM -- By: , From:
You did a wonderful job on Amanda\'s website. It\'s beautiful just like her.Being a bereaved parent is the hardest thing we will ever go through. I lost my precious daughter Ashley on Oct.27, 2002. I still take antidepressants and anxiety medication. I know I will be with Ashley and my Mom and Dad for eternity but someday it\'s to overwhelming to live with the grief. To not know what your daughter died from must really be hard.I pray for strength and comfort and strength for you and your family. webpages.charter.net/ashleylaurenhull/
12-03-2008 10:15 AM -- By: Sandy Lavender, From: Lawrenceville. GA
11-29-2008 11:25 PM -- By: Wilma McHargue, From: Louisville, KY.
Amamda Rose is a beautiful girl with a smile that would charm the world, and God has chosen to use it to brighten Heaven.
11-29-2008 10:24 PM -- By: Louise Schickram, From: POS mom
Something led me to look into this site tonight. I remember reading about Amanda on POS awhile back. I remember her beautiful smile, and when I saw her name, I just clicked on it because I knew something here was familer. It seems we have a few amazing things in common. The Afterglow poem you wrote, was the one my other son picked to put on my Gary's cards for his funeral. The song 'Remember Me' that is playing, is one I always sang to my son after he passed. If I go further into the site, I'm sure I will find more, but the tears are keeping me from looking further.
I wish you peace and love , from one grieving mother to another.
Your Amanda is truely beautiful, such a sad loss.
Louise S. (mom of Gary W.)
11-28-2008 8:28 AM -- By: enzo, From: siracuse italy
11-28-2008 12:10 AM -- By: Dianna Jacobs, From: Flora, IL 62839
My dearest condolences to Amanda's family. I have enjoyed my visit here, the music is wonderful and Amanda's website shows all the love of her family. I lost my daughter, Kanda, April 13, 2004 and her birthday is May 24th. I noticed Amanda's funeral was 5/24/06. To lose our own child is just beyond belief, even after 4 1/2 years, I still can't believe Kanda is no longer on this earth. My hugs truly go out to all of you and may God Bless you as you continue this path of horrific grief. Just google Kanda Jacobs for her website if you would care to visit. &nbs p; Again, my condolences, Dianna, Kanda's mom4ever and Kanda4ever30
11-27-2008 11:59 PM -- By: Dianna Jacobs, From: Flora, IL 62839
11-27-2008 8:50 PM -- By: Karen, From:
Hi. This is a beautiful tribute to a beautiful young lady. I lost my son Kyle to suicide on Sept 4, 2006. He was 16. You are in my prayers. My daughter created a Virtual Memorial to him as well, but I don't know how to find the code. Maybe you could look at his sight: Kyle Copija. If you'd like to talk: firstname.lastname@example.org
God Bless, Karen
11-25-2008 9:51 AM -- By: Carol Ragsdale, From: Newnan, GA
Amanda you are truly a beautiful angel. And your site is so very beautiful and filled with love. I am sending you and your mom my love, thoughts and prayers as we go through this Holiday Season.
Love & Hugs
Carol Mom to Angel Matthew Mullis
11-20-2008 3:34 PM -- By: Ashley, From: Ky
Well I just got a lot off my chest. I feel so much better. I've wanted to take up for you for so long, for what they said about you. Im sorry it took me over 2 years. I miss you so much. No one sees what their doing wrong, just what everyone else is. Thanksgiving is next week and I dont know what exactly I have to give thanks for. God, I wish you were just gone on a long 2 1/2 yr vacation and you'd be back tomorrow!!! Oh how I wish and dream for that! I would give ANYTHING for that to happen! I miss you sooo more than words or thoughts could express. I hope I see you tonight in my dreams, maybe you'll have news for me that I think I already know. Watch over us Mammie. We need it so much. Love your little sister Ashee Cole.
11-19-2008 4:30 PM -- By: Jean, From: West Virginia
I found your beautiful memorial to your beautiful daughter through the POS web site. My heart goes out to our children and to ourselves, for we are left forever asking "Why".
My one wish now is that our children never be forgotten. Please know that you are in my heart and in my prayers now and for always.
Jean Mom of Stephanie
11-18-2008 4:52 PM -- By: LoniaCera, From: California
May her spirit rise and show others the riches of their soul.
For Ashee- If you ever get a chance visit Haleakala at sunrise then you will really experience God's gift of light. It only lasts a few seconds, but the experience is phenomenal.
11-18-2008 11:18 AM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Wherever you are, can you bring me a miracle? You know what I mean. I dont know why I want it, but I just do. So, just pull a few strings for me, will ya? I love you and I miss you so much. Love ur baby sister Ashee Cole.
11-07-2008 8:14 PM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
10-22-2008 7:30 PM -- By: Ashley, From:
I miss you more than ever.
10-01-2008 3:36 PM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Things are changing so much with all of the family, its like we're not even the same people anymore. Im so glad I have a few old friends back in the picture or I wouldnt know how to go on. I miss you so much. I love you. To my big sister Mammie Rose, Love your little sister Ashee Cole
09-30-2008 11:40 AM -- By: Debi, From: Maryland
My prayers go to all of Amanda's friends and family. I also lost some friends to suicide. I feel so saddened. May you find solace in continuing to gather together and keep Amanda in your hearts.
Peace and Love,
09-23-2008 4:16 PM -- By: Jessica, From:
Hey Mannah!!! I am finally married!!!! Mrs. Boggess. YOu would make so much fun of my name i know. It sounds so different. I know that you were there and I thank you so much for my message. I cried and still cry over it. I think it was the greatest feeling i have had in a long time!!!! I needed that. Well until next time I love you forever!!!!!
09-21-2008 4:51 PM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Im back to the point, like I was 3 months ago, if not lower. I miss you so much. I miss my old life so much. This one is just full of disappointments and let downs. I want to have a baby and grow old with Doug. I wanna watch our kids get old and see our grandkids but.......then again I wonder how much do I really want that to happen? But somehow every morning I wake up, and the next morning and so on, so on. So I think, "I must be here for some reason? THEN WHAT THE HECK IS IT?!" I just miss you so much. Things were so much simpler when you were here. I love you. I miss you.
09-13-2008 8:06 AM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Well we're getting ready to go to Walmart to set up the booth for Ky Suicide Prevention, in your memory. I hope you will be there with us in spirit. Love and Miss you. To my big sister Mammie Rose, Love your little sister Ashee Cole
09-12-2008 6:41 PM -- By: paula rymer, From: flatwoods,ky
Amanda's mom, I met you at the compassionate friends regional meeting in Frankfort. My daughter Alycen also took her life. She was 19 years old. She left me on Jan 1, 04. please email sometime. This memorial is very beautiful and touching. Paula
09-09-2008 7:34 AM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Well, another night and no sleep. The sun is starting to come up. It makes me think about all the people in my life that have told me how much better watching the sun rise is suppose to make you feel. I haven't felt that "betterness" yet, Im hoping one day I will. I just miss you so much, and that makes everything worse. I just wish we could go back to May 20th 2006 and keep it there forever. Or better yet Aaron and Katrina's wedding reception. That was one heck of a good night. Or maybe even back to our childhood! Even with all the bad stuff that happend to me, I would go back to it in a second if it means having you back. Those were the best days of my life, regardless what happend. We were all so happy. I dont know if we will ever get back to that point. All I can do is pray that maybe, just maybe, i'll be able to feel that way again. I know I will never be completely happy, but maybe see just a glimpse of it.
"Shirts in the closet, shoes in the hall, Momas in the kitchen, baby and all. Everything is everything. Everything is everything, but your missing. Coffee cups on the counter, jackets on the chair, papers on the doorstep but your not there. Everything is everything. Everything is everything, but your missing. Picutres on the nightstand, tvs on in the den, your house is waiting, your house is waiting for you to walk in, for you to walk in, but your missing. Your missing. Your missing, when I shut out the lights your missing, when I close my eyes your missing, when I see the sun rise your missing. Children are asking if its alright, will you be in our arms tonight? Morning is morning, the evening falls. I got too much room in my bed, too many phone calls. Hows everything, everything? But your missing, your missing. God's drifting in heaven, devil's in the mailbox. I got dust on my shoes, nothing but teardrops."
LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH! To My Big Sister Mammie Rose, Love your little sister Ashee Cole.
09-06-2008 11:57 AM -- By: , From:
Hey Baby Girl,
I wanted to write you on Grandaddy's birthday today. Oh how we miss you!! Words cannot say or tell anybody. Someone wrote a couple of days ago and asked "how do you get over the hurt?" answer is YOU DON'T, I know things will never be the same!!!!! There is now that silence when I bring up your name. But I have to!!! You are still a big part of my heart and soul and ME! I WILL NEVER STOP MISSING YOU AND LOVING YOU AND ASKING WHAT IF.......or the biggest thing is WHY??????? Well as Ash told you Jessica is getting married today, and I know you will be there!!!!! I know you will be in my thoughts and in our hearts, Jessica's & Bethany"s & Ashley's and many others, but especially your moma's as you are everyday!! LOVE~HUGS~KISSES~~~
09-05-2008 11:21 PM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Well tomorrow will be Grandaddy's 84th birthday....his third birthday with you not here. We went to eat at Jim's Seafood and it was great. Jamie and Doug weren't there cuz they had to work and Tristan cuz he is just at that age. But you weren't there because, well....we know why. But I felt you there spiritually. Laughing and joking and wishing Grandaddy a great birthday along with us. I starred at the river a long period of time, trying not to cry, just wishing you were with us for real. I had been doing real good with my depression, but I guess missing you and actually greiving is just catching up to me, since I denyed it for the first 2 years. We went to talk to the local paper today about you and the suicide prevention week and booth we're setting up. I just hope we can save at least one family from feeling what we feel and dealing with what we've had to deal with. Maybe, just maybe, it will make me feel like losing you created something good. Thats the only good thing, I can think that could come from losing you. Doug and I had to order new cell phones today and get new service b/c certain ppl in our extended family are not living the way they should. They don't love eachother and all they care about is money. I wish our whole family was closer. You think after 2 suicide deaths in 3 years we would realize something huh? But some ppl just don't learn. It sucked tonight really. I had a good time but I just feel so uncomfortable around Aaron and Angie. I dont know what to say to them anymore. Alissa and me are getting alittle closer. I want to stay close to Alissa because she was so close to you and I know that she has to be hurting so much more than she is showing. I just want to be there for here but its so hard. I stand in her kitchen and just think of all the times you were in there. I walk into her house and think of all the times I watched you walk in or out of there. Tomorrow Jessica and Bogey are getting married and you should be there! But....your not. That sucks. Watching how Lola has grown just makes me realize how long you have been gone. Since she was born about 3 months after you died. And now Madalyn is almost 3 months old and its unreal. How can our lives go on without you? I feel like when we all get together we ignore the fact that you ever lived. We hardly ever talk about you when we're all around. Just like tonight, no one said anything. Were they thinking it? Well Alissa called...guess you want me to shut up huh? Talk to ya soon. Love you and Miss you. My Big Sister Mammie Rose, Love Your Little Sister Ashee Cole.
09-04-2008 10:26 PM -- By: dede, From: Indiana
What a beautiful daughter that you had. We lost our 5 month old grandson on Aug 5th 2008. How do you get over the hurt?
08-23-2008 6:11 AM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
Hey Mammie. I've been in a lot of pain this week! Its be awful! I guess I pulled a muscle in my back and have been chair ridden pretty much. Besides losing you, its the worst pain Ive ever felt. Tomorrow is CarCar's bday party (actually today) and sunday (tomorrow) we're going to outback for Aarons 30th which is monday. Lola's birthday party was full of tension, it was awkward. Hopefully, today will be better. Well just wanted to write you and tell you to be with us today, which im sure you will! And I KNOW you'll be with us at outback sunday!!! I love you and Miss you. My big sister Mammie Rose, Love your little sister Ashee Cole!
08-12-2008 10:26 PM -- By: Ash, From: Ky
I just wanted to write you. Granny is in the hospital, which im sure you know. I hope she comes home soon, please be there with her. Thats the last thing our family needs especially Grandaddy, is to lose someone else so close to us. Mom and me went to the doc yesterday. Hes changing my meds around, so maybe they'll actually start working. I don't have much faith in them though, I believe its all in my head and I have to do all the work. But here lately, I have been just too tired, both physically and mentally, to do the work. I guess you could say the only thing keeping me going is Mom, Doug, and all the youngins that I never see - not to mention the bullies! The one thing that keeps running through my mind is what Mom told me last tuesday. "Your the only thing that is keeping me going". I couldn't imagine being anywhere without Moma. I know you and her weren't that close, but you know we were always inseprable and still are. I think thats why you were so close to Granny and Grandaddy, is cuz I was taking all your attention from Moma. And I aint gonna lie that "it" doesn't cross my mind, but I wish people trusted me enough to know I aint gonna do anything. If I was, would I be writting to you or trying to get help? I just feel so underestimated. I know you felt that way too a few times, cause most of the time, I was the one doing it. I love you and I miss you so much! I just wish you were here so none of us would have to miss you so much! And so none of us would be so depressed like we are now! I hope you send me a sign that you are still here with me and all of us, and be with Granny in the hospital. She is our angel, now you need to be hers! MY BIG SISTER MAMMIE ROSE, LOVE YOUR LITTLE SISTER ASHEE COLE
08-08-2008 2:50 PM -- By: Moma, From: KY
My Amanda Rose,
It seems like forever since I wrote you last. And even longer since I saw your pretty face. Times goes by so fast but yet so slow. Tomorrow marks 5 years since Michelle has been gone. It doesn't seem that long. It seems like only yesterday I was taking care of her like she was one of my dolls. Then I became a real mom! At least I had lots of practice. School started Wednesday, Lauren and Tristan are in the 5th grade and Carlee in the first grade, it is so hard to believe. Lola will be 2 next Saturday and Mady will be 2 months on Sunday. Time doesn't wait on anyone. Daddy has always said that. Time isn't good to everybody either. Everyday I watch him lose alittle more of "Daddy", he is forgeting people, places, things he has done, that we have done, places, where things are, but so far, thank God, not family. He does get confused about my grand girls mainly Carlee & Lola and their Momas & Daddys! Then he sorta laughs it off and says there are too many of them to keep straight. Granny is doing pretty good, she is having a hard time excepting Grandaddy the way he is getting, but I always tell her it could be worse! We talk about you alot. They miss you so much. You had a very special bond with them that death hasn't even broken, very few people in life are blessed and lucky enough to have that! Some days are trying and some days are blessings, but I never know what each day will bring! I just wish you were here to be with us! We all miss you so much! Keep watching down from above and help us, send me a sign, I need to know you are there and yet here with me, still crazy aren't I! I am still loving you more and more everyday! All my love!!!!!
08-07-2008 6:28 PM -- By: , From:
I had a bad day monday. One of my worst! Im still having that same feeling as I did monday, but its just not surfaced. Went to the "female dr" tuesday. What an experience that was. I hate goin there! Hopefully my moods and such will get better once my hormones get better! Well, just wanted to write you and tell you I love you and Miss you and that I think about you every second of everyday!!!! MY BIG SISTER MAMMIE ROSE, LOVE YOUR LITTLE SISTER ASHEE COLE!
08-04-2008 8:23 AM -- By: Ash, From: KY
Hey Mammie! I am so stressin right now. About $ and just having a bad feeling all the way around. I have no one to talk to. Half the time I talk to Doug, I feel like hes ignoring me. Heck, hes a man right? Aren't they all like that? It seems like everyone is "ignorable" to me these days. On another note, I am HOOKED on BB! I hope you know what that means, I dunno if I can write it on here. But I dont think thats gonna be lasting much longer, cuz my fav person is prolly about to be gone. Oh well, its just a game, like life! A sick, twisted game. I am so.......blah. I really dunno how I feel right now, its weird. I'm sad, scared, worried, and just feel sick to my stomach b/c of all these. I feel like I did on that morning, and I HATE IT! I just hope you send me a sign saying everything will be ok, that I'LL be ok!!! I love you and I miss you and I just wanted to talk to you a bit! I feel like if no one else is listening, you would. I miss you so much. Sometimes the pain is just to much to think of! I cannot wait to see you again! I pray for that day to come soon! MY BIG SISTER MAMMIE ROSE, LOVE YOUR LITTLE SISTER ASHEE COLE!
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